I'd rather be dead then average!

I really fell off the rocker tracking my daily training here. Although I have still been training my ass off. My new current bests are raw with wraps on squat is 725lbs 485lbs on bench and still 635 on dead lift (ive been fighting a lower back injury never lift when you body has quit). I am in full meet prep mode for IPL worlds in vegas in november of this year. My goals are 775 505 675 for a total of 1955lbs. My body weight has been steady at 350lbs I am leaning out for meet time and have a goal of being right at 330. I want to make a splash this coming year in power lifting. My goals are 850 squat 540 bench 750 dead lift all of which are attainable. I want to compete alongside my idols to make them my rivals. Average has never been in my cards, maybe writing this is more for me then anyone who happens to come across this but I will not settle for average. I will do what ever it takes to be great.